WOW. It’s been WAY too long since the last time I posted but sweet Jesus put a little something on my heart to share and I’m stoked to share it. I think it’s about time to share my testimony and how God found me in my deepest pit and saved me so I can put on the righteousness of God.
All my life, I’ve grown up in a Christian home. My parents have been Christians and they were raised in Christian homes, so all my life that’s what I’ve been surrounded with. I’ve been raised in the church with numerous people guiding me and shepherding me in my Christian walk. But, up until I was 10 years old, I thought I had earned my salvation. It was all about me. My family is in ministry, so I had the tendency to think that I had it all together and everyone else had it wrong. I would think this in my mind because Satan would stir these thoughts.
One Sunday, my family was at church, and the offertory song started. It was a song that our worship leader had written, and as he sang it I listened closely and curiously to the words being sung. The song, “Love Comes For Free” was pounding in my heart, and then the last verse came.
“I know a man named Jesus, he loved until he died.
And after doing nothing wrong took the bullet for his bride.
If what I’ve heard is really true and love should come for free;
then I can love this Jesus too because he first loved me.”
Okay woah. Woah, woah, woah. Now, this REALLY started to pound on my heart. I’m Jesus’s bride? I didn’t earn his love? He loves me SOOOOO much that he would die for me? My heart was racing and I felt the power of the Holy Spirit working inside of me, giving me a clear picture of the gospel. Through this remarkable song, I realized that I am not good. I am broken and needy. I have nothing… absolutely NOTHING to bring to the table. I am a poor, wretched sinner, who is in need of a savior. And Jesus is my forever savior, who calls me his bride, and died so that I can live with Him.
I reflected on this song and the truth that God showed me through it through the rest of the day, and I remember like it was yesterday laying down to sleep that night and I started crying out to the God of the universe. I was still wrestling but somehow I felt an enormous peace. I knew in that very moment God had saved me from my brokenness and I am forever raised up with him all because of grace.
This particular Sunday was the best day of my life, but just because I became a Christian didn’t mean things all of a sudden got easier. Yes, in that moment I knew the answer to my struggles, but a few months later, I went through a long period of doubts and serious struggles from the depths of my soul. I was wrestling if there really is a God, or if I really am saved. But through that, God did and continues to lead me back to the love of Jesus. Because, when we stray and wander, he is our good shepherd who leads us back on the path of righteousness.
As Christians, our lives will NEVER be perfect until we enter the pearly gates. But, in the process of sanctification, we slowly are learning to live as Christ lived by surrendering ourselves to him daily. We have to surrender knowing that by grace we have been saved, and there is nothing we ever did to earn the love of Jesus. I pray that through my story, and through the sweet gospel, you feel the comfort and the peace that God gives to us through his son.
WE ARE HIS MASTERPIECE.
“Love Comes For Free”
Written by Adam Wright
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